You see, I am a perfectionist. Meaning, it is extremely hard for me to switch tasks until the one I have started is perfect. Thus, what takes some 1 hour may take me 3 hours. I can get lost in little, insignificant details easily. Additionally, because my mind is set on perfection, I often procrastinate because I am afraid of failing... and by failing, I mean not being or doing something perfect. Oh, I almost forgot; I also tend to set unrealistic goals for myself. Now, I'm a believer in pushing yourself and never giving up, but that's not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about literally setting unrealistic goals (example: I will lose 25 pounds by next week) I also tend to run low on patience, I need everything to happen NOW. And as you may can tell, I am my harshest critic.
Tears filled by eyes. An enormous burden was lifted. Instead of writing down my to do list, I just began writing and here is what ended up on the paper:
I found an unexplainable peace. I found comfort knowing I did not have to be perfect. I also found comfort in knowing that I am loved unconditionally by the one who is perfect. I sat in awe for a while and then I flipped over the paper and did what my mentor had suggested. I wrote down what good enough was. I suggest all you perfectionists out there do the same. I think good enough is going to look different for everyone. Don't view it as "settling" because that is not what it is. It's something to look at when you are having a hard time and realize you did whatever it was good enough, and most importantly that you are good enough.
Additionally, I have implemented a few other changes to my thought processes.
1. Instead of making a to do list, at the end of the day I write down everything I accomplished. It always is much more than I thought, and it is both rewarding and satisfying. (Oh, and it always meets my "good enough" standard.)
2. At the end of that list, I write down three positive things about myself and three positive things about life. It sounds silly, but by writing it down, it forces me to stop being so hard on myself.
3. At the very bottom of the page, I write down the following: I am not Perfect. I am Forgiven.
My prayer for each of you reading this is that you realize how extremely loved you are and not only that you are loved, but that you are forgiven and that perfection is not needed, because we live under grace and mercy.